Life is so unpredictable...

2 days ago, Wednesday night, a sharp pain in my stomach/gastric woke me up in the middle of the night, at about 1am+. I went to the toilet and was super giddy. Everything I saw was green, yellow and white, blur. I leaned fro and back, trying to find the correct position to stable myself. I managed to get out of the toilet, but didn't manage to get out of the kitchen, as I collapsed just a few steps away from the toilet. The pain was unbearable. I was super giddy. Everything was unclear. I blacked out... and I totally have no idea for how long. When I finally woke up, I struggled to get myself up and got back to my bed, still in pain. The feeling was terrible.
I thought I may not be able to make it till tomorrow morning and decided to send a message to him... him and no one else. It was as though I was writing a last message to my love one before I leave for the netherlands.
At that moment, all I was still thinking about was him...

Anyway I managed to make it... I'm still alive and kicking. However, there was no bit of concern from him.. :(

P.S. If you(him) are reading this and was thinking that I made up all these to get your attention, I can tell that I'm not so crazy! Why do such a thing in the middle of the night, when I have already tucked in bed at 9+, 10 that night?

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