Yes... I know drinking does not help in reducing the pain inside me. But I can't help and thus went to drink last night at +Plus. At Tanjong Pagar? I'm really upset and has been holding back my tears at work and at home at times. Once again, I cried badly last night. My tears flow like running water, never stop. It was as though I was crying out the tears I held back for the past few days. I cried till I was so tired and kind of fell asleep there for a few minutes.

I no longer hold my liquor that well. I puked badly, like as though I was going to puke my lungs and stomach out, after drinking just 1 jug of Vodka Cranberry. As usual, I shivered, maybe that's the effect of alcohol on me. I wasn't feeling cold at all. Terrible feeling, but not as terrible as being ignored by him.

*** I really realized my mistakes in our r/s, and really hope to have a chance to change for you. You have always been very good to me. You understand me, can read my mind even before I put it in words. I know it's my mistake for not cherishing you enough, but I really hope to have chance to do so.

A guy told me last night this "Guys are rather simple, while girls are complicated. Guys don't put it in words when he gives you the chance..."

*** I'm sorry that if you have given me the chance and that I was too stupid to realize. I just hope for another chance...

P.S. I will still wait for you...

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