My grave...
I just digged my own grave during my IA interview session just now. I got the wrong concept of the interview presentation. I thought that it was just to let them know more about my personality. However, it turned out to be that they want to know what are my strengths and weaknesses in my technical skills. They gave me a question and required me to solve it on the spot. Once again, I failed in this part. Thus in the end, I was rejected right in the face. Though they tried to make it sound nice, as in not harsh, I still feel upset. The feeling is bad. Actually to be frank, not being able to get to that company wasn't a big deal. I wasn't taking that hard. But the failure in that interview just pulled me back. I wonder what my future interviews and careers will be like. Often, I thought that we are given a chance to learn. Now I doubt I'm right. From the company, I realised that not everyone or every company is willing to teach. They want you to learn in school and be able to just apply everything that you have learnt to their company. They don't expect you to go there and learn. They think that it's too late for that. So to be frank, am I late? Am I in the right course? Right place? I suddenly remembered one thing that a friend has told me before. "You may be interested in something. But this interest and the ability to do well or score are 2 different issues."

However, from this interview, I learnt something that is (1)I need to learn how to be able to "sell" myself, (2) never show that you are person who is lack of confidence, (3)must always be able to relate your technical skill with the company.

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Hope that this phrase is really true. Now I can only pray that there's an non-interviewing company that is willing to accept me.