Recently...
I'm feeling quite moody, sick of life. Almost everyday is a working day, 1 off day per week. I've no life. Anyway maybe due to my mood, I've been thinking a bit deeper lately...about relationship, about life, about future...
First, about relationship, I've always wanted a sweet relationship...yes I do have, but sometimes when I look around, I'll question myself again "is it really sweet?" Hai... I think I'm having too high expectation. Looking at those bad/unpleasant relationship, I'm considered fortunated, blessed to have such a dearie...but sometimes, I'm greedy and is asking for more. Why am I like this? Why do I have to make life so difficult? I'm sorry dear, if I'm making your life miserable. Is it miserable to have me?
*** Sorry dear dear ***
Second, about life, I wonder what do I want in life. When I was younger, still studying, I always wanted to work instead of studying, as I dislike exams. Exams just give me stress but nothing. But now as I'm working as a temp full-timer, I start to feel bored working. 6 days working, 1 day off = 1 week gone = no life!!!
Third, about future, what will my future be like? To build a better and bright future, I must really work hard now! That's all I know... So what's the conclusion? Human being work for money, work for a bright future, work for everything! Everyday is work, work and work!!!
No surprise + no thrill + no excitement make a bored and moody girl = Madeline