-=The Devil is coming out=-

The devil is coming out... Can you stop it from happening?

As compared to sister's life, my life is not as wonderful as I think it is. Sis may think that hers is not as wonderful as well. I guess by saying this, she is contradicting herself too. Contradicting as she said that she likes the feeling of being wooed. Whatsoever. We just have different characters I guess. I'm someone who need others' care and concern, someone who want to be the centre of attraction. I hate loneliness and emptiness, in another word, I'm afraid. I don't need so many guys to woo, one or two is/are enough. One whom is my cup of tea. So actually I don't really like to be in sister's situation, and I think such situations will never happen to me. Considered lucky or what? I don't know and i don't wish to know. I realised that girls around me are treating me better than the guys. A conclusion that I should turn les?! People may think that I'm desperated, but I'm telling you all out there that I'm not desperated for guys and I don't care what you all are thinking. All I need someone to be there for me, to accompany me. You may not understand how I feel. Never mind. I won't bother to tell you anyway. I shall bring out the bad side of me huh? So I won't be bullied again. What for being so good to everyone? Do they really appreciate it? Who knows? Maybe they are cheating your feeling? Maybe they are at one corner of the world backstabbing you? Betraying you? I'm really tired of life!!! I'm feeling so sick of it! It will be good if I can stay in my dream and never wake up.

There are so many things in life that I don't understand!!! Can someone explain to me? What's love? What's forever? What kind of situation should I be in then I'm considered being cheated? Being bullied? What's right? What's wrong? Right to play around with some feeling? Right to cheat? Right to lie? Wrong to help? Wrong to care? Who can be trusted? Who is lying? What's life for when it's so sucky? Why do I have to experience so much in my teenage life? What's family unity? When can I stop being hurted? When can I stop having the pain inside me? The answer is when I'm dead.

I'm really feeling hopeless, discouraged by the things that are happening around me. I don't deny that there are still good people around, there are also bad people around. "Once bitten, twice shy." Heard of it?