went out early afternoon, 12.30pm, to meet shan, wendy and kelly to go to expo to meet the rest. there were a christmas carnival and a christmas performance organised by CHC. yun invited us there. though not everyone is able to make it, we were all very happy. the performance is named "the Christmas Land". it talked abt how christmas comes abt. it was a nice performance. at the carnival, a mini funfair, we took the Super Twist & the Super Top Dancer. i sat the Super Twist alone, as i don't want to leave yun alone. Furthermore, she is the one who treats us to these rides. i didn't scream a word. it was quite daring of me. heez. as for the Super Top Dancer, i screamed like hell!!! it was going at high speed. i must admit that it was scary. after the carnival, shan, kelly & i went to tamp to have our dinner. i couldn't eat much, guess it must be due to the Super Top Dancer ride.
then i went to somerset to meet sis and jA they all. sis, sam(her friend) and i decided to walk along orchard thru the crowd to experience the atmosphere. it wasn't that bad, but on the way back, it was real BAD!!! we met jA & dW. on our way back to somerset, thru the crowd, the crowd seemed to become larger! more ppl are pushing and squeezing. in the addition, the snow sprays have polluted the air. i couldn't breathe well and didn't have the energy to push myself thru the crowd. at that pt of time, jA was there for me. unknowingly he hugged me from behind and protected me. he asked me to walk behind him so that he can make way for me to walk and asked me to hold his arm. the crowd was havoc.
then we headed towards clarke quay. we sat along the river to drink and chat. we took turn to talk abt our christmas wish, our most sadness moment, out most happiness moment and out most embarrassed moment. due to lack of experience, we didn't know how to mix the drinks well and it was very strong. as i was quite depressed, waiting for my ex to reply, i drank quite a lot and quite fast. thus i become a bit tispy and vomitted. my teeth even shivered, i was feeling so cold for no reason. jian an hugged me, giving assurance. i leaned on his shoulder. then jA and sis went to 7-11 again to buy drink, and it took them very long. soon sam and wilson left cos they were feeling well. i was worried abt sis and jA, so called them. jA came back to tell us that there was a couple quarreling and the guy pushed the girl, so he asked sis to console that girl. i asked him to go look after sis. soon it rained. dW and i went to a building for shelter. it was very cold and i was shivering. i guess if a police were to see me, they will think that i have taken drugs when i didn't! as sis and jA took very long, i was very worried and so we went to look for them. we walked in the rain and soon found them. i held my sis, told her how i'm feeling. soon we left the couple. we went to a shelter and i wanted him to look after sis while sis wanted him to look after me. poor guy. we decided to go home. jA asked dW to send sis back home and he send me back home. so dW and sis went off in the rain. i was very worried abt sis, afraid that dW won't be able to look after sis, so i told jA that i can go home myself and asked him to send my sis home. but he looked at me real close and told me that everything will be fine and asked me not to worry. we walked towards the road. as i was quite wilful, i wanted to walk in the rain and he pulled me, initially he held my hand then he interlocked it. we were like couple. he is the second guy who did that. soon his hp rang, i guess sis called him and we went to a coffee shop(still at clarke quay) to meet them. we held hand all the way. they ate sth and i didn't as i didn't have the appetite. dW and sis went off to buy hot milo for me. after eating, we went to the roadside to wait for taxis. at that moment, it was raining heavily. sis and i held each other as we walked. at the shelter while waiting for taxis, sis and i were cold, and jA stood in front of us. i wanted him to look after sis while sis wanted him to look after me. they hugged for a while as she was really cold. then don't know why dW and sis suddenly walked to the front, leaving jA and i. he talked to me face to face real close, like couple abt to kiss, but we didn't. actually i was quite sad or maybe jealous when i saw them so close. but i forced myself not to like him for one thing, he is one yr younger than me. in the end as we had difficulty getting a taxi, we took train. sis went to his hse as it was nearer to her wrkplace and dW and i went home our separate ways. there was sth quite contradicting. i heard from him that sis told him that she will wait for him and on the other hand, sis asked me to consider him as he is really a nice guy. and i msg her this morning abt it and she said that she was just talking cock and she admits that she is a little attracted by him. both sis and i have good impression of him and both of us are a little attracted by him. but he alr has a girl in his mind. hai... now i really don't know what to do. what a confusing relationship.
it was like a dream......