unhappiness and argument arose again. sis & i quarrelled twice on our most recent meet-up. i admit that the first argument was mainly my fault, as i was ruded to show faces to her friends. that day, we went to g.m to meet her friends, a place where my first impression wasn't a good one and i once promised not to go there anymore). by the time, we reached there her friends were mostly drunk. though she explained why things turned out to be like this (told me that they are her friends, they are just merely drunk), i felt uncomfortable, uneased, so hoping to leave immediately. i was too wilful to bother abt her explanation. as i was worried abt her, i decided to stay a while long to accompany her and hope that an "awake" guy will come to our rescue. but that guy didn't appear any time sooner. sooner i decided to leave without her and with guilt. i was feeling guilty because i didn't accompany her till the end and i started this unhappiness though she just brought me there, thinking to make me happy, which turned out to be the opposite. when i was in the cab, i could feel the pain inside me. i was extremely upset. i was so afraid to lose a sis. i know that she dotes on me, she compromises a lot, she is willing to do things just for me. the second unhappiness happened yesterday night. we met to shop for a gown for her upcoming event. when we were shopping, she was always messaging and felt neglected. but i didn't want to tell as i thought i was too sensitive. we met up with jA and aD and we waited for them to knock off and headed towards a pub to sing. at around 1am, we left the place and aD and her went to the washroom. obviously i knew that they were both in the toilet as i heard aD's voice. but she said that she is alone. i knew that she lied and was upset and jA told her abt it. she came to explain to me and i guess both of us were in the fault, and i didn't want to speak. we were outside 7-11 to have our supper and she bought a hot chocolate for me and she knew that i'm sick. that's very nice of her. no matter what she will still give a thought for me. thanks sis. but things don't end here, aD and jA tried to talk to her abt other things and there was a little argument again. hai. why didn't things turn out in this way? anyway i just hope that fate has brought us together, i hope that it won't brought us apart. i think i'm just too wilful and too sensitive. i really don't have many sis. those closest one have somehow "left" and i hope this won't continue. i hope that i won't lose both my closest sis.