"20th" blues i guess i'm a very silly gurl. it has been 1yr++ nearly 2yrs. i've not been contacting him yet i miss him so much. memories of him should have faded long ago but they didn't. is it because i'm desperated? is it because no one has replaced him in my heart? or is it because i'm thinking too much? my heart seemed to bleed on every 20th of the mth. it's so painful, so uncomfortable. when will it stop? will i die of shortage of blood one day? can i take it any longer? who knows? i guess only the god knows. i hope to see him again, hope it will b soon.