*sobsob* izzit tt i'm naught or what, y izzit tt god is playing such a trick on me?! y did i score 16 pts(<20)> for my O level, which allows me to enter a jc? if i didn't, then i wldn't go here, i wldn't b taking A level exam n receiving my lousy grades today?! i'm struck, don't know what to do...mr yeo has suggested tt i shd try to appeal for Uni, n meanwhile i will need to repeat whiel waiting for their replies, just in case i'm not accepted by Uni. due to my ego (which i admit tt i do have), i don't wish to repeat, i don't wisht to b looked down by others, esp by my cousin who is also in the sr... being alive is a torture to me... i wish to end it, but i can't, cos i don't wish to make my family suffer... i shd suffer it all by myself... since i have chosen this route to jc, then i shd bear the resposibility n try to accept what is happening nw... anw after talking to ms kwok, i'm feeling much more better... n i will keep my promise - to b happy... i will b more optimistic, more indifferent in a way, b cheerful as i used to b...*thanks a lot, ms kwok!*
