sobsob(-_-,)~ came back from hospital. went to visit my grandpa. he has become weaker than ever. can't speak a word, can't even smile... he's in the critical condition. heard from my relatives tt he has made a U-turn at the hellgate. he almost can't make it 2 days ago then almost can't make it a few hrs ago. looking at him, lying weakly on the bed with a oxygen mask over his nose n mouth, my tears went out of control. eyes soon became bloodshot. feeling lost n afraid, i msged 2 persons who came to my mind, mZ n sis(hel). don't know what to do... even though i'm feeling v.tired nw, i still can't slp, or maybe shd i say i don't dare to slp... i'm afraid tt anything will happen. my heart is so weak tt even a hp tone can give me a shock. life is a mystery. it's a torture to b alive... hope tt grandpa will b alright soon~ god bless him...
