if u ask if i'm sad... i'm lying to u when i say no. how wld i not? he's my beloved kin, some1 who watch me grow... i may appear happy on the outside but actual fact is tt i'm extremely hurt n upset. i can talk, laugh, joke to others as though nth happens, but when i'm alone, i can't help thinking of him. he's gone, even the body is gone. i won't be able to talk to him anymore, not even to his body. how i wish tt his body wldn't b cremated, cos at least i cld still talk to him, he cld still listen, even though there won't b any response. *sobsob* thot of the day: loneliness n emptiness r killing me...
