as what mZ always says "we must always look on the bright side"... *hrm... ya* i guess i have tried n is feeling better nw. as told by my relatives, ah gong is alr very fortunated, cos he has spent a very long time with us, in a family of 4 generation, a very big family. he has no illness, except for his old injures. so he didn't suffer... n also he will b happy to c us happy too. hopefully ah gong is really feeling this way n hope tt he is safe n sound in the netherworld. *ah gong~ take gd care!* to mZ, thanks for ur acc-ing n ur scolding(advice) tt nite on msn. i'm feeling better nw n i guess u r right... really thanks a lot... u take care too! to zH, thanks for consoling me n ur advice... u take care too!