haiz A levels r just a few days away... n i can say tt i didn't study much... don't know y, i just don't have the mood to study... i want to study n get gd grade but i can't! y is this so? i am feeling very terrible, feeling so useless abt myself, cos i can't even control myself... my stress n fear have taken over me (don't know how to express), they have controlled me like a robot......*sobsob*... i have been having headaches all this while, then ytd nite i started to have breathing difficulty, my heart seemed so weak to control myself n i can't slp well... i have nightmares at times tt made me even more terrible... ade wanted to bring me to consult a doc nxt wk, as she suspected tt i may have migraine, n i am thinking if i want to go... it is not tt i am afraid to find out tt i have illness or what, but it is just tt i don't wish to waste $... i think tt going for check-up is just a waste of $, so what for go for it? so what if i really have illness? isn't life still have to go on? worst of all, i still have to eat medicine! i hate eating medicine! i hate its bitterness!!! i don't want! haiz...
quote of the day: life is short, so no matter what happened, enjoy it to the fullest without regret.
