*~confusion again~* today is my last paper for prelim -> phy p5... can't finish it in time but nvm cos it's over, no pt brooding over it... after tt, went to mac for breakfast with ade n s7... acc ade to the video ezy to borrow some vcd to watch n spend our wkends, n also for relaxation...
then as promise, i went out for a movie with sam aka a korkor aka a neighbour, known him since young, so have been calling him "korkor"... we went to ps to watch "new policeman story", an excellent movie, which i will give it a full mark rating (5*****)! b4 tt, we took bus n mrt there n i will say tt it was a boring trip~! even though he is as tall as bb, i don't feel anything special, but felt tt it was a bro & sis trip... he looked so much like a older bro to me, maybe know him for too long liao... acc him to yoshi to have his lunch... then so qiao, or shd i say unlucky, i met mz, zh, jr n their other friends... they were walking down the escalator just in front of yoshi... i saw zh 1st, n smiled n waved to him, but he smiled n didn't wave back... then saw mz, he was like giving me a "tsk tsk" look! ohh my god! there is nth between the two of us lor! i called him over to ask y is he here... n i was told tt they were coming for a movie too, but diff movie from mine... they were going to watch "dogdeball"... as their grp walked past yoshi, i saw tt zh was talking to jr n i think he didn't really c me again, maybe i just ate a pill tt makes me look transparent... nvm then... after they left, i feel uneasiness in my heart, it seemed like my heart is broken into million pieces... till nw i am still wondering y...??? filled my mind...after meal, as it was still early, we went to arcade for a while b4 entering the cinema theater... don't know y i feel a bit uneasy watching movie with him, maybe cos it was our 1st outing? *no idea!* the show was abt 1h 30min...
initially i was going to meet ade but cos she is having diarrhea, so decided to go look for her n watched those vcd tt we had borrowed... i told her abt tt uneasiness in my heart, tt heartaching feeling... n she concluded tt i like one of them... she gave me tt evil smile, looking as though she knows a lot of thing n i don't know... at 1st, i tot tt she was thinking tt i still like **, n i myself did suspect it too... but she said no n somehow hint this ***... i think for quite a while, n finally know who she is referring to... i asked "how cld it b?" *i know him no long ago n i seldom talk to him online n we do not talk face to face... we don't even dare to say hi to each other cos we r just shy* n once again ade gave me tt "don't tell u" look... but just told me tt "dang qu ze mi, pan guan ze qing"... *so what is happened? i really have no idea what am i thinking? do i have any1 in mind? if yes, then who is he???*
