haiz... this few days were extremely unhappy days... nxt wed is our performance so we r having a lot of practices n rehearsals, tt r making us worn out... nt juz practising, we still have to look at ppl's faces! they gave me or maybe some of us the feeling tt they r unhappy with our drums team! we r really trying our best to improve ourselves, but y ppl juz don't understand n appreciate our efforts put in?! today's rehearsal was even worst~ made me feel so angry n sad... angry cos every1 is like putting all the blame on us, sad cos even we r trying so hard, ppl juz don't appreciate our efforts... threw my temper 2day, n think mrs phay n instructor, chong yang also can see n feel it... even chong yang scared tt i will quarrel with them n so suggested tt i changed my position, or maybe it is cos i was playing badly... i really don't know is it...maybe i'm juz the worsest drummer in this team, the 1 dragging them down... haiz... :(... juz don't understand y ppl can say different things at different time?! can't ppl be more responsible for what they have said?! after 2day's rehearsal, xt, qh, hazel, ch, xw n i (drums members) went to far east to shop n have dinner... i was bearing with all my sadness for quite a long time, then finally when i was alone on my way home on the bus, tears rolled down, then cried it out once i reached home... *no words can describe my sadness n disappointment... sobsob~*