......2day i tried to join in back to my group of friends... but i think i failed... they seemed so happy, enjoying themselves, n i felt so extra being there with them... they were physically ard me, but nt...(don't know how to describe)... haiz... have i done sth wrong? what is this happening to me? i really wish to b as close (to her) as we were the last time... but it juz seemed so easy to say n yet so difficult to do... msg-ed her last night, hoping tt she will understand my feeling, n tot tt 2day will be a much more better day for us... she seemed to have found her new "partner"... i wish to cry but can't.. i don't know how am i going to b my usual self again.. what shd i do? teach me~ i juz can't raise my mood! i hope to tell her all my feeling, but i don't dare to... i'm afraid tt she will hate me... i feel so miserable! i hate myself n my life! *suffering little gal~ sobsobz*