haiz don't know y just now i was so agitated n feeling so sad when raymond n i were talking on the topic "friends"... we went to mac to have our dinner... then this topic just popped out from no where... whenever it came to this topic, i will be quite agitated n sad... maybe cos there are too many different kinds of friends ard me... i have friend who betrayed me, friend who is using, friend who backstab me, friend who cheated me, friend who abandoned me...n maybe many more which i don't know... i feel tt with these memories, there is fear in my heart, fear of being cheated, fear of betrayed...overall i'm fear of being hurted again... i hate or i'm afraid of losing friends esp sisters, brothers n closest friends... friends are categorized under different sectors: special friend (bf / gf), closest friends (sis / bro), best friends, gd friends, normal friends etc... so what kind of friend do i stand in ppl's heart?